i don't need a position in the team!!
it has been a long time since i last update my blog..
life's getting meaningless to me was the reason i'm not updating. everything seems meaningless and days were just boring. am i the one who's changing?? or what's it that's happening around me??
tourney starts this coming thursday and i don't even know who's my partner!! how am i going to train like that..with this standard of mine and the lack of training with my partner, i don't think i'm gonna do well. i simply just feel ashamed about myself. i don't want to get into the court with thick skin and come out like a clown. i really don't mind that i'm not playing for the team. i don't make a difference in the team anyway. i know others play better than me and needs this place more than i do..
seriously, i'm not feeling proud of being in the b'team anymore. i'm like just a stupid outsider who went for training everytime. the way your looking at me really make me sick. i hate the way you looked at me. it seems like everyone's sympathising me thus giving me a chance to get into the team. please, i know where i stand.
stop throwing positions to me and expecting me to hold up the job. just because i'm the oldest in the team, and thus you're throwing this stupid position to me?!! isn't that stupid?! and, throughout all these years, i don't remember that we have a vice in the team, and now you're like expecting me to hold up that position?? it's somehow impossible to me.
did anynoe really notice my efforts being put in?? where's all the credits that i'm suppose to get??!!
i'm somehow feeling that i'm longer in the team. playing for the school or not, i'm totally not interested.
this year girls team was the most horrible team i've been into. doesn't have any hope and aims for the b'girls anymore.
things happening everyday's like killing me.
all those rumours & stuffs are really making me sick. stop it once and for all please..
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it has been a long time since i last update my blog..
life's getting meaningless to me was the reason i'm not updating. everything seems meaningless and days were just boring. am i the one who's changing?? or what's it that's happening around me??
tourney starts this coming thursday and i don't even know who's my partner!! how am i going to train like that..with this standard of mine and the lack of training with my partner, i don't think i'm gonna do well. i simply just feel ashamed about myself. i don't want to get into the court with thick skin and come out like a clown. i really don't mind that i'm not playing for the team. i don't make a difference in the team anyway. i know others play better than me and needs this place more than i do..
seriously, i'm not feeling proud of being in the b'team anymore. i'm like just a stupid outsider who went for training everytime. the way your looking at me really make me sick. i hate the way you looked at me. it seems like everyone's sympathising me thus giving me a chance to get into the team. please, i know where i stand.
stop throwing positions to me and expecting me to hold up the job. just because i'm the oldest in the team, and thus you're throwing this stupid position to me?!! isn't that stupid?! and, throughout all these years, i don't remember that we have a vice in the team, and now you're like expecting me to hold up that position?? it's somehow impossible to me.
did anynoe really notice my efforts being put in?? where's all the credits that i'm suppose to get??!!
i'm somehow feeling that i'm longer in the team. playing for the school or not, i'm totally not interested.
this year girls team was the most horrible team i've been into. doesn't have any hope and aims for the b'girls anymore.
things happening everyday's like killing me.
all those rumours & stuffs are really making me sick. stop it once and for all please..
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